Posts Tagged "hospital"

34-Weeks with Twins–They Said I’d Be Lucky To Make it

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34-Weeks with Twins–They Said I’d Be Lucky To Make it

Today, I am 34-weeks pregnant with twin boys. If you would have asked me seven weeks ago if this seemed likely I would have said, “No.” At 27-weeks, I was rushed to Labor & Delivery because I was two and half centimeters dilated and experiencing strong contractions– though I didn’t feel a thing. Here I was thinking I was coming in for a routine ultrasound and BAM! they had me rolling through triage in a wheelchair. Let me first share that I HATE hospitals. I acknowledge their benefits but they make me very uncomfortable. I have a grandmother who lives and breathes...

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Delivery Fight Club

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Delivery Fight Club

Now as I prepare for the birth of the twins, I find myself thinking back to the delivery of my first child, S Dot. Before delivering my son, I asked every mother I knew, “How does child birth feel?”… and the clearest answer I received was, “imagine your worst menstrual cramps and multiply times 100”. Let’s just say that did not nearly detail what I felt. But my girlfriend/hair stylist (who has an 11 and 13 year old) told me a woman is not suppose to tell a new mother what delivering a child feels like, as to avoid scaring her. I guess it’s like the first rule of Fight Club. There...

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Natural Birth— How “Dare” I?!

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Natural Birth— How “Dare” I?!

I delivered our son after 16 hours of labor without medication. Up until the last push, the nurses told us that our hospital room was one of the quietest they had ever witnessed. Why? Because it took all of my concentration to focus on what was happening to me. Now, before I continue… do you remember that obnoxious kid in grade school whose eyes got a little wider when they were faced with the treacherous “double dare”? Yeah, I was that child. Anyone who knows me will tell you that I have an incessant need to prove myself. It’s a horrible trait and I’m working on it. In my second trimester...

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Depression–My Dirty Little Secret!

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Depression–My Dirty Little Secret!

My emotions have always been intense, even as a child. I never gave it much thought, I assumed my feelings of depression were normal. With very little effort I would find myself feeling dark and lonely. But, because my parents often spoke of their expectation that I would become a successful, self-sufficient and strong woman, I buried my sadness, as to not show weakness. When people were around, I’d tell myself, “It’s Showtime!” and I would strive to be the most engaging and jovial person in the room. But, when the crowd broke, so did I. When I was about 10 years old, my mother shared a poem...

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Mutual Connection

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Mutual Connection

Casey and I worked together briefly before I left for maternity leave. We were both cordial, but I didn’t overly extend myself because I like to keep my personal life separate from work (basically, I don’t want everyone up in my business). When I returned three-months later, she shared that she was expecting her first child and I immediately felt a connection–the baby connection! I have crossed paths with many people who initially seem the complete opposite of myself. But, as soon as you get a person talking about their children the barriers begin to crumble.  Now that I...

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